I wanna break free. I can fake a smile and force a laugh but the truth is without my one im in hell… Nobody helps. I may go to church again to see if they give me hope. I have none left. I’m staying home today. Normally I go see my one but not now. He wouldn’t want to see me like this. Emotional and hurting, he would think he has done something wrong. I bleed when I fall down and ive fallen a lot lately. .I wanna sing like real singing.